JEREMYL.

three months.

2009-08-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

It's the end of August and it can only mean one thing!
It's our THREE MONTH Month-iversary!
Although it's the fasting month, I know we will be together in anyway possible.
We've had our fair share of up's and down's in those short months.
But we've always gotten out of them.

We've still got a long way to go.
I will remember what you told me the other day.
You said the most important milestone would be the one that is in 3 months.
We'll hit that mark. For sure.
Right now, we'll have to get through day to day.

No matter what happens in your life, I'll be there for you.
You're my baby. :)

ily, a!

i gotta feeling...

2009-08-27T00:16:00.002+08:00

that tonight's gonna be a good night!

Yes it is! Holidays are here baby!
Finally, Tuesday was the last UT.
Yesterday is the "last" day of school cos of the briefing.
And today is the "first" day of the holidays!

Time to chill out!
For some, to earn money.
For others, to really slack.
For me, a little bit of both.

I hope the Fasting month ends soon.
I know, I know. It's barely a week. But once it ends, everyone can go out and makan anytime they want. Which makes outings easier!
ITE outing, Poly outing and the best of all?
Dates with GF!

For a month plus, I won't have to hear these few nicknames and phrases:
"Eh, JeremyJeremy!"
"Err, TheJeremy!"
"Help me install photoshop eh."
"JeremyJeremy, teach me photoshop eh."
"Jeremy, go DIDM Camp."
"Eh Jeremy, buy wacom pad."
"Fuckface"

Those who know, good for you. HAHHAH!

:(

2009-08-18T16:55:00.001+08:00

Sorry Amirah. :(

spike.

2009-08-16T23:59:00.003+08:00

10 days since I last posted.

Let's see - What causes your heart rate to spike?

1: When you're happy with your loved one. :)
2: When you're enjoying life. :)
3: When you're exercising.
4: When you're fucking angry.
5: When you're fucking sad.
6: When you're bloody scared.
7: When you're playing games.

Well, I can pretty much say that I've experienced that list in the past 8 months. 2009 is ending pretty soon! How time flies! I love the first reason. Like she said, my heart rate spikes when I'm really happy with her. She knows how to make me happy. =D

Well, heart rate spiking can be good and can be bad. When it's good, you feel good all over. Well, when it's bad, your whole body feels like crap.

Whatever the case, I know I have the Girl to be there for me and to keep me happy.

ily, a!

friendship.

2009-08-06T00:47:00.002+08:00

How much effort does it take to maintain a friendship?

Maintaining friends for life.

"Always be there for your friends. Always be willing to listen to them. Be interested in their lives, their concerns, their general well-being. Do not yawn when they talk unless you really have been deprived of sleep during the last few nights. Give them all the time they need because relationships do take time. "

How to maintain friendship?

"The communication has to be from both the sides. No single sided effort will work out because how long a person can keep trying to maintain the relation from one end without getting response from the other end. So, the effort must be made from both the ends."

In this day and age, especially in Sunny Singapore, we seriously need to be reminded who our friends are. Who we can trust and who we can depend on.

second month

2009-07-31T07:24:00.000+08:00

How time passes when we are having fun.
It's already our second month babygirl.
We're still happy and strong together.
You like it simple, I like it simple.

Technically, it's our "First" month and you know why.
Seeing your smile every single day in school is joy for me.
Being around you all the time is just so nice.
Happy 2nd Month, Babygirl.

ily, a!

money.

2009-07-14T23:27:00.002+08:00

Where my money at?

stay home saturday.

2009-07-11T19:34:00.003+08:00

And here we go.
Haven't blogged in a week.
Just too lazy to do so.

Babygirl went out with her mates today.
She should be reaching home like soon.
Hoped she enjoyed herself.
For sure she did.
Argh, I miss you la babygirl!
Come home quick!
My phone's dead, so I can't buzz you!!!

Was suppose to meet up with Big Diq.
But I'm guessing he isn't back from Malaysia.
Hence me staying home.

I wanna get stuff! As always.
Babe, my birthday is coming.
You know what to do.
HAHAHAH! JK!

andand, leila!
where the f are you!

ily, a!

another movie date.

2009-07-05T16:22:00.002+08:00

Finally caught Transformers: The Revenge of the Fallen with babygirl.
Our second movie date.

Had an awesome time with you!
We literally rushed from one place to another.
The day was complete with our trip to Pastamania.
Hope you enjoyed it as it's our belated First Month date :)

ily, a!

first month.

2009-06-30T23:58:00.005+08:00

Can't believe it's already the first month of us.
Being with you all the time puts a smile on my face.
How weird that our date will change from month to month.
Nevertheless, it's still our day.

Before the day ends.
Happy FIRST month babygirl.

It's the start of our new chapter in our life.
I love you from the deepest of my heart.

ily, a!

apologizes.

2009-06-23T23:43:00.001+08:00

Sorry.

Babygirl, if I made you angry in anyway.
I'm truly sorry.
I really didn't mean it.
I never thought it through.

ily, a.
i really do.

yawn.

2009-06-21T23:01:00.003+08:00

I wanna blog but I don't know what to blog about.
Hence, the title.

Babygirl and I were talking about what happened the other day.
She remembered the stuff but not the day.
Tsktsk.
HAHAHHA!
And I don't blame her.
I might have forgotten the day if it isn't cause of something.

Anyways, body ache.
Yeah.
Legs for some reason.
Body and arms for another.
Filming yesterday at some mosque, so yeah.

Anyways, next week is something important.
I'm looking forward to it.
:)

ily baby.

you.

2009-06-18T21:51:00.002+08:00

Babygirl, this post is for you.

I know I've said what I want to say in MSN and SMS.
But I really want you to take care.
You are not feeling well.

I don't want to see you in pain syg, it hurts.
If I could, I would take you to the doctor right this instance.
If your parents allowed, I would be there right now.

You have been telling me you're strong girl.
Be strong now alright?
But don't stay up late.
Go and rest as soon as possible.

I Love You, Amirah.

sick.

2009-06-17T21:22:00.003+08:00

H1N1 cases are up.
Weather is shit.
Now, I don't feel too good.

Weather has been a bitch.
That one everyone agrees.
Now, I get random headaches and sneezes.
It's hot yet I feel cold or vice-versa.

GirlF is also not feeling well.
We're both seriously having the same symptoms.
Sheesh.

GirlF, we'll get our painkilling fix soon. (You know what I mean)

Random note:
Hello whoever is reading this that is following my life and hers, or something. HAHA!
Na na na na, na na na na, Hey hey hey, GoodBye!

school.

2009-06-15T00:48:00.002+08:00

Argh, let me count.
1, 2, 3, 4, 5 err 6, 7!
7 hours before I wake up again and get ready for school.
Damn.

New term tomorrow.
UTs coming up.
Productions coming up.
Shit.

Babygirl's asleep I guess.
She's abit down right now so I hope she takes care uh.
Girl, I know you're gonna say you're strong.
I know you are.
But I still want you to know that I'm here for you. :)

I miss you, girl.
ILY, A!

movie date!

2009-06-13T19:45:00.003+08:00

Not today.
Yesterday.

It was awesome!
With the exception of one part, will get to that later.

So met babygirl over at her place before heading to school.
We wanted to install Adobe CS4 for our use.
So we headed to the IT Helpdesk and left our laptops there.

This is where the fun starts.
I already told her we were going to catch a movie.
So knowing that we wouldn't make it in time, we bought the tickets first.
Then we headed to Vivo to catch Terminator Salvation.

AWESOME MOVIE!
Finally caught it!
Marcus Wright and John Connor, baik!
Babygirl beside me, BEST!

We then hung around and cam whored, well sorta.
Then rushed back to school cos they smsed me.
This is where the shit thing happens.

They didn't install for her Adobe cos of stupid reasons.
They installed for me mine but didn't input the installation key and changed my VPN password.
WTH.

Nevermind, what mattered was the day was awesome with you. :)
We had loads of fun. (you know, i know what it means. heh. )

ILY, A!

breathe slow.

2009-06-11T00:50:00.002+08:00

Breathe slow, count from one to ten.

Babygirl needs to take care of herself.
You need to breathe slow uh.
Take meds too aite?

So we met up earlier today to head to school.
Cos I needed to configure my laptop & we had to study for UT.
But in the end, we just surfed Failblog.
Didn't really study at all!
HAHAHHA!

Been like a week since we actually did that! (You know what I'm saying girl)
Get well first la k?!
Ohoh, we got our Subway Cookie craving!
Now to settle my Mee Soto craving.

Babygirl, meet up soon aite!

ily, a!

bounce bounce.

2009-06-07T15:27:00.005+08:00

Bounce, bounce.

"When using a Flash Unit, remember to bounce off whatever you can.
This is to get an even light distribution from the flash onto your subject."
HAAHAH!

Yesterday, I went to shoot some photos for Syabilhan Siddiq's Cousin.
So he took videos while I snap the shots.
I had 2 DSLRs while he had a videocamera.

The best thing was:
WE WERE IN CRUISING AROUND IN A BLOODY BMW CONVERTIBLE!
That was our mode of transport and we had the soft top down.
We were the "Rich Man's Sons" for the day.

We took a detour and headed to RP.
I gave my babygirl a surprise visit.
Although it was a short while, it was worth it.

Her camp ends in about 3hours or so.
What she doesn't know is that I'll be there to fetch her.

Awesome :)

Bounce, Bounce, Baby Bounce Back to Me.

two days and counting.

2009-06-05T11:33:00.001+08:00

Haven't seen you in two days.
You're going camp for two days.

I'm gonna miss you real bad my babygirl!

ice cream and fries.

2009-06-03T23:20:00.007+08:00

First Night Out

Short and sweet, literally.
Ok, maybe with a hint of salt.
Lame I know!

Went out with HIPHOP Girl to Swensens.
Although it was a freakishly short date.
It was damn nice.
Our first night out together.

That will have to do for now.
Cos we'll be only seeing each other next week!
Our study date & our movie date.
Seriously can't wait!

BABE, ILY!

start of something new.

2009-05-31T01:05:00.001+08:00

31st May.

It's a new start.

ILY, A.

emphasis.

2009-05-26T23:31:00.002+08:00

Me and my heart we got issues

Emphasis is what today's all about.

For the past week.
Girl, you were my sole emphasis.

touch me.

2009-05-25T22:17:00.002+08:00

Touch me, touch me, touch me, ta-touch me

Girl, that's your fav line.
The line that seriously made me laugh in class.

The past week with you was awesome.
Really had loads of fun things happening between us.
You always pon class and I'll always keep you company.
Like today.

Finally got the phone I wanted!
If you know what phone I bought, good for you.
Awesome phone I tell you.
Girl likes it as well.

krazy.

2009-05-21T20:12:00.003+08:00

The way she dances
I like her style

You were awesome for the preview show.
You even got me distracted when I was supposed to be planning la!
But it was great!
So don't fret aite girl?

Momentum is coming up next week.
The planning for the coverage is a killer.
Girl has been asking me to chill.
And I've been telling her the same thing.

Nevermind.
It's gonna be over after next week!
And after that, HOLIDAYS FOR 2 WEEKS!
WOOHOO!

Girl, I'm so gonna get distracted by you during the actual show.

When I wake up
I go back to sleep

crazy cooko lala.

2009-05-19T23:02:00.003+08:00

You drive me crazy cooko lala out my brain I can't decide.

Your favorite line in the song.
Today was really crazy cooko!
We were both laughing all the time.
Instead of listening, we kept chatting on msn like mad.
Even people started to say stuff.

But you didn't mind.
Neither did I.

It's also crazy cooko lala cos of Momentum.
My mind is so bloody cluttered with the planning.
I just want the crew to help out for once la.
I'm like already planning so much for them.

Coz in this dream I get to do... things
That's gonna drive you crazy girl

Crazy Girl.

2009-05-18T23:00:00.003+08:00

One more day girl!
So bloody happy to see you just now!

You got me addicted to the song la!

Crazy girl, crazy girl
You drive me crazy girl, crazy girl
You drive me good...
You driving me crazy girl

But you know I like another line.
Heh, don't wanna write it here.

Do well for UT tmr aite!?

stone faced girl.

2009-05-17T22:13:00.002+08:00

And this is for you. :)
Because you have been so nice the past few days.
Because your smile never cease to amaze.
Because you stayed up late at night.
Because you made me feel just right.
Because you were so crazy.
Because you made me smile for days.

Now your turn to feel grand again!
:D

power to the people

2009-05-15T14:38:00.003+08:00

Alright!
Power to the people!

Like what John Connor is saying over the radio:
"If you are listening to this, you are the Resistance."

I think it's a freaking cool way to advertise Terminator.
But I think only people who really watch the movie
and knows who John Connor is will get it.

Opens in cinemas, 28th May 2009

It's gonna be an awesome movie for sure.
Awesome cast with Christian Bale as John Connor.

Know how Telcos sometimes don't care about consumers like us?
It happened to me.
I am on the RedPipe on their old Student Plan.

The thing is I wanted to recontract and upgrade my phone along time ago.
Normally, they'd send a voucher to entice you, but they didnt.
So I decided to ask them and guess what?

THEY OFFERED ME A VERY NICE AMOUNT OF CASH VOUCHER!

I can upgrade my phone now!
Woohoo!

Power to the people!

yellow cardigan girl.

2009-05-12T21:28:00.003+08:00

Stupid Myflashfetish.
Hahahah!
Was listening to my song, while visiting other blogs.
Then as I visit each blog, their song start and my got cut off.
Bloody bastard!
Lol!

Finally got a bag that fits both my DSLR and my Laptop.
Don't have to bring my sling bag with my DSLR next time.

WooHoo!
Tamrac Adventure 9: Camo
Bloody huge!
Still thinking if I should bring it to school daily.
Sans the camera of course.

yellow cardigan girl,
hi, i'm jeremy.

portfolio.

2009-05-10T21:18:00.003+08:00

Argh shucks.
Was browsing clubsnap today.
I read something about portfolio and stuff.
I have tonnes of videos and photos,
but I never really compile them.

Actually, I sorta do.
Well, I have a gallery but I haven't updated in awhile.
I have the Westwood Youtube page where I upload the videos I've done.

Sometimes I wish I didn't do all these.
God damn bloody hard to select stuff and make them into a portfolio.

Oh ya, was reading up about camera flash.
I'm contemplating if a third party flash is worth it.
I wanna get a ring flash adapter too.

I mean, like seriously.
This thing does wonders.

By Greyscalegorilla

Awesome how the pictures turn out with it.
That guy has a weird moniker just like me.

Heh.

victory

2009-05-09T23:39:00.002+08:00

jai ho!

Ok, I just cant think of any title for this post.
That song just happened to play on my playlist.

Haha!
I need to get my schedule straight.
At the moment, it's still quite confusing.

Oh ya, 28th May!
Terminator Salvation!
Who wants to watch with me!?
I'm so gonna catch that movie no matter what.

Leila's been pissing me uh.
That girl has to take care of herself, like seriously.

And because I saw her in school yesterday,
I can't stop thinking about her!
How am I supposed to approach her?!

Bloody cluttered mind eh?
Hahaha.

And now, Hot n Cold is playing.

double shiokness.

2009-05-08T18:01:00.003+08:00

"Haha! Double shiokness."

That was a message from MayChin.
I told her nothing can spoil my day today.
Best way to end the school week for sure.

Now it comes to this:
How do I approach that person?
And I mean literally approach.
Not some sms or msn.

Hmmmmm.

Good Morning, Megan.

2009-05-06T20:18:00.016+08:00

Good Morning, Megan.

Alright, this I gotta blog about.
My two fascinations as of now.
Megan Fox and Cameras.

You must be wondering.
"How the fuck is there a link?!"

See that video above?
It's gonna be on the cover of June's issue of Esquire.
The cool shit is that, the cover picture (as seen below):
is taken entirely ON VIDEO!

Damn, they really got it right this time.
Megan Fox.
Who doesn't like her?
Seriously.

So you've got a smoking hot Megan on the cover of Esquire.
And you've got a 4K Resolution video of her taken by this:

DAMN! 4K is 3 times bigger then your HD Videos man!

The song in that video is also awesome.
Climbing Up The Wall by Chris Cornell.
Same guy who did the theme song for Casino Royale.

Watch the video up till the end.
You'll see something cool.
Imagine if we have that kinda magazines right now.
Oh ya, Watch it in fullscreen if possible.
Ecstasy I tell you.

Climbing Up The Wall!

Lovestory Meets Viva La Vida

2009-05-02T18:13:00.002+08:00

awesome mash up of the two tracks.

since life presents me with this route.
heck, i'm gonna take it.
:)

dreams v

2009-04-26T15:10:00.002+08:00

another day,
another dream.

this time,
it was really good.
we managed to look past everything,
and move ahead.

that dream gave me the motivation.
the motivation to do something.
i dont want us being the way we are.
i dont want us being cold to each other.

you took that chance that day,
so can we just try moving forward?
can we try acknowledging formally?
it'd be nice if that happens.

i dont want us to stay like that forever.
can we just try?

another day.

2009-04-25T00:31:00.002+08:00

after that day,
i feel so much better.
i know it dont mean much.
i dont expect much anyways.

i doubt she feels the same way i do.
but i know i was darn happy.
i know at least she still talked to me,
even if it was just a "just being nice" kinda thing.

it was great.
and i feel great.
suckish - but great.
excited too.

feel like doing smth.
smth that will be kinda cool.
dont know how it'll turn out,
but i wont know if i dont try.

side note,
mum's coming back in 8 hrs time.

a day to remember.

2009-04-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

first and foremost.

:D :D :D :D :D

what happened today really outweighs
the suckiness of my day and my week.

although it wasnt really a huge step,
im willing to make whatever small step
it takes on this road to recovery.

hearing that voice again,
melted me heart.
made me feel
like it was Aug2006 again.

i was crushing all over again.
even my dream of you last night was awesome.

alright jeremy, stop dreaming now!
but who cares - it's a great day!
and it's one for me to remember!
23 April 2009

3weeks.

2009-04-20T02:32:00.001+08:00

it's been that long.
i can't seem to fall asleep anymore.
seriously.

always up till 3am+
for no reason.

i need to sleep, fast!

should i see a doc?

fourmonths.

2009-04-19T23:54:00.002+08:00

has been four months,
still fresh in my mind.
have got so many things,
all pointing back to you.

tried to really move on,
nothing's holding me back.
but why cant i move on,
i dont have the answer.

tried to say hi,
but got blasted in the end.
tried to get your attention,
but i was too scared.

im angry.
im scared.
it's not as if i didnt try,
you just blew me off.

you came back once,
then you blew me after.
now im asking you,
why cant you just look my way.

i still really miss you.

cranky.

2009-04-18T19:19:00.003+08:00

school's starting next week,
so is hers.

im tired of holidays,
but i dread school.

feeling so bloody cranky,
even though i tried everything.

tried to maintain what was left,
but it got destroyed in the end.

distracting,
doesnt work.

tired,
but cant sleep.

everytime i do something,
it goes back to you.

why?

rest in peace.

2009-04-17T12:29:00.001+08:00

my mum's dad passed away
peacefully at around 2AM today.

may he rest in peace.

mess.

2009-04-11T15:02:00.002+08:00

videos are killing me,
radio is draining me.

i can't sleep.
i can't eat.

my head hurts.
my body hurts.

mentally tired.
physically wasted.

best friend MIA.
everyone else out.

i'm leaving.
tonight.

dreams vi

2009-04-07T17:10:00.001+08:00

you appeared yet again.
this time, you looked spectacular.
the outfit that we planned to see when you were 24.
but alas, i doubt it's gonna happen.

i loved how you look in that outfit.
so light and elegant.
it reminded me of that night,
when i saw you under that light.

the innocence of it.
the beauty of it.

i can't give you a fancy and adventurous life.
i can't be who you envisioned me to be.
i only can give you plain-old-jeremy.
but my love for you is as true as it can be.

i won't live myself hating you,
thats why i forgave you a long time ago.

in that dream,
we were both young and wild and free.
but i know it's just my fantasy.

i really miss you.

dreams III

2009-04-05T00:01:00.002+08:00

recurring episodes on tv might suck.
but recurring dreams of you don't.

having you appearing is enough to make me jump over the moon.
but having you appear before a special date doesn't.

i love the sight of you and the sound of your voice.
but seeing you and hearing you, makes my heart shatter all over.

i still miss you.

PlayFM

2009-04-01T01:10:00.003+08:00

PlayFM, the new iteration of my radio station.
it has gone through several cycles,
PlayFM being the latest.

the last few were about 3 years ago,
but it never got much attention.
PlayFM, however, got loads of attention.
it could mean something.

but one things for sure,
past few nights staying hosting alone
and hosting with my sis and the guys
has taken it's toll on me.

my head hurts like hell,
as if i've just woken up from a severe case of headbanging.

whatever it is,
head over to play-fm.bs.com for some free unrestricted radio!

as ashraf likes to put it:
PlayFM; it's now part of everyone's life

Violet Hill

2009-03-24T17:31:00.000+08:00

Was a long and dark December
From the rooftops I remember
There was snow
White snow

Clearly I remember
From the windows they were watching
While we froze down below

When the future's architectured
By a carnival of idiots on show
You'd better lie low

If you love me
Won't you let me know?

Was a long and dark December
When the banks became cathedrals
And the fog
Became God

Priests clutched onto bibles
And went out to fit their rifles
And the cross was held aloft

Bury me in honor
When I'm dead and hit the ground
A love back home unfolds

If you love me
Won't you let me know?

I don't want to be a soldier
With the captain of some sinking ship
With snow, far below

So if you love me
Why'd you let me go?

I took my love down to violet hill
There we sat in snow
All that time she was silent still

So if you love me
Won't you let me know?

If you love me,
Won't you let me know?

wishes.

2009-03-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

funny how wishes can turn out.
i wished for someone to be happy,
at the stroke of midnight on new year's eve.
and it came true.

not the way that i wanted though.
but it came true.

hard.

2009-03-11T01:35:00.002+08:00

When you meet somebody you care about.
It's just hard to walk away.

dreams II.

2009-03-05T17:10:00.001+08:00

have you ever had an experience so surreal,
you swore it couldn't have taken place?

have you had a dream so real,
that you swore you wished it was real?

last night was both.
you talked in there.
i was so happy.

wishing it was real.

my strength, my life.

2009-03-01T17:10:00.000+08:00

you were my everything.
my strength.
my life.
my sanity.

your words broke my heart into a million pieces.
now, i'm trying to pick up the pieces.
i still miss you.
even in the morning.

dreams.

2009-02-28T21:03:00.002+08:00

they say if you dream that you die,
you die in real life.
they also say whatever you dream,
it's the direct opposite in real life.

the only time i remembered how i died in my dream,
was me drowning in a pool.
a deep deep pool.
it's a reflection of me in real life i guess.
i can't swim.

i've been dreaming of a certain someone lately.
and it's always nice in the dreams.
that person smiles.
and makes me feel all warm and fuzzy.
but that person doesn't say anything.
only smiles.

i miss those smiles directed at me in real life.
i miss that warm and fuzzy feeling.
the only thing that is similar,
is that that person doesn't say anything too.

dreams are all i have.

2 months.

2009-02-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

2 months.
9 weeks.
62 days.

i still miss her.

50mm f/1.4

2009-02-15T19:46:00.002+08:00

i need lens!
after the GST Offset package arrived,
i'm thinking if i should get the lens.
should i?

and oh ya,
n, ice cream treat. nak?

supposed.

2009-02-14T17:10:00.002+08:00

supposed to be a day beside ----
i want to be alright
wish i can spend time with ----
but i can only dream

Happy Valentines Day to you though.

Valentine's Day

2009-02-14T00:00:00.002+08:00

Valentine's Day

My insides all turned to ash, so slow
And blew away as I collapsed, so cold
A black wind took them away, from sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so dissatisfied
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing
I used to be my own protection, but not now
Cause my path has lost direction, somehow
A black wind took you away, from sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so dissatisfied
And the ground below grew colder
As they put you down inside
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

So now you're gone, and I was wrong
I never knew what it was like, to be alone

On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(I used to be my own protection, but not now)
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(Cause my mind has lost direction, somehow)
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(I used to be my own protection, but not now)
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(Cause my mind has lost direction, somehow)

red flower minus e.

2009-02-12T23:41:00.002+08:00

eh girl, i didn't blame you for my shitty attitude yesterday.
seriously. i just wanted you to trust me.
cos i really trust you.
sometimes you just need to let go.
and know that im gonna be here.

after reading this, you'd better smile.
or something.

quick.

2009-02-12T23:24:00.002+08:00

k, time for a quick update.

Sunday
Coverage of Thaipusam for Mr Ramesh.
did filming while siddiq did photography.
tired like fuck after that day.
had to go ww on monday and
Ramesh also told me he was bloody shagged out.

Monday/Tuesday
went WW to settle SportsDay stuff.
headed to stadium to settle the AV.
saw NadB.

Tuesday Night
headed to Bt Timah with diq and jieren.
to collect the lens for our cameras.

Wednesday
woke up at 4am
took my time to do stuff
and cabbed down to PioneerMall Mac at 6
met the rest of the crew & LawChia.
took 1084 pictures.
went back with ros.
slept.
woke up, and headed down to Bt Timah to return the stuff.
slept.

and that was it. pictures uploaded soon - once i sort them out.

piercing.

2009-02-07T21:16:00.003+08:00

Thaipusam (Tamil: தைப்பூசம்) is a Hindu festival celebrated mostly by the Tamil community on the full moon in the Tamil month of Thai (Jan/Feb). It is also referred to as Thaipooyam or Thaippooyam in the Malayalam language. Pusam refers to a star that is at its highest point during the festival. The festival commemorates both the birthday of Lord Murugan (also Subramaniam), the youngest son of Shiva and Parvati, and the occasion when Parvati gave Murugan a vel (lance) so he could vanquish the evil demon Soorapadman.

Source: wikipedia

so, tomorrow will be that day.
siddiq and me will be following Mr Ramesh's family
to cover the whole event for the whole day.
we'll both take pictures and video.

it's been a annual event for me personally,
cos i've been helping to cover the event for 3 years now.
it's really an eye opener to see everyone doing it.

really - if you think piercing is painful enough.
you've got to really see what they go through.
sure, they pray and go on a vegetable diet for a week or so.
sure, they chant and technically go into a "trance" like state.
but i bet there would be some pain involved.
for those who say they wont bleed.
you're wrong. they do bleed.

it's really nice to see the festival.
the colours.
the sights.
the sounds.

although the worst part i think would be,
lugging a big assed video camera
and a dslr
from noon till midnight.
but it's all worth it.

pain is relative.

worst.

2009-02-06T22:22:00.001+08:00

it can't get any better than this.

i knew it since the start of the day.

tick tock.

2009-02-06T21:33:00.002+08:00

my internal clock is shit.
i keep thinking today is another day.
and another day is today.
and it bugs me day to day.

sometimes you really wish you need more time,
yet other times - you wish time speeds up.
and there are moments you just wish,
time stood still.

time is complex.
one day you'll look back and think,
"I should have put more time and effort in"
or
"Shit, I should have used that time for something else"
but look at it - time is everlasting.
you've always got time to do something.

when you wait for something,
eventually - something will happen.

tick tock tick tock.

tracks.

2009-02-05T23:12:00.003+08:00

relatively quiet day.
maybe cos today isnt special.
same old, same old, i guess.
siddiq came to collect my videocam for his shoot at school.
and i downloaded the tracks i need for the sports day video.

made my choice of songs to use already.
very electronic i must say.
gets the sports day adrenaline pumping.
laid down the songs on the tracks alr.

so i must say today was kinda productive.
tmr, i guess i'm gonna prepare some stuff for thaipusam.
equipments have to be checked.
gonna be a bloody long day on sunday.
then rushing to get everything done so that wednesday,
we'll be prepared.

lay the effing track!

the answer is 6.

2009-02-05T18:07:00.001+08:00

as of now 28

apart 2

together 26

toys.

2009-02-04T00:51:00.000+08:00

as always, photography and videography are bloody expensive hobbies.
especially if you do it kinda causally like me.
sheesh. i really need money to fund my stuff.
luckly i have projects here and there.

all these toys are so bloody expensive.
but they are seriously worth the money.
i would say the key thing is to buy smart.
buy NEW if you really have to.
other then that, 2nd hand is the way to go.

i mean look at it, my equipments are all mainly 2nd hand's,
and they work bloody god damn well.
just bought a 2nd hand tripod for my video cam today.
and it works really well!
maybe, i just have to spray paint a little bit or something.

oh yea, totally forgotten to post this up yesterday.
found the picture, but i guess i forgot to copy it over.

Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles

i would say that this is a damn cool show.
especially if you've watched the trilogy.
and dont deny you find that poster cool.
terminator salvation is coming out too.

"This is not the future my mother warned me about."

i'll be back!

tv.

2009-02-03T23:56:00.006+08:00

alright! my fav shows in the US are coming back on!

Knight Rider

knight rider. currently my favorite.
KITT is the bomb! along with the whole crew.
it's cos of KITT that's why you see cars having strobe lights on their dashboard.
it's gonna be on star world this thursday - 2 hour premiere if im not wrong.
but i'm finishing the season already! heh.

Chuck

chuck is brilliant! seriously!
i think it's the underdog show.
it's comedy mixed with action.

Big Bang Theory

big bang theory, geeky and funny!
you just have to understand what they are saying.
get past that and it's laughter all the way.

Prison Break

prison break, ah scofield. you bring joy to the girls.
sadly, it's ending soon. a few more episodes and bye bye.
gotta say, micheal - you've brought us on a ride.

Heroes

heroes is starting to get abit confusing too.
it's a superhero plot, what are you expecting.
if you read a comic book, you've got intersecting storylines!

yeah. i've been watching these shows since they were first aired.
gave up on lost, well i think lots of people gave up on lost.
just cos, i think they were lost too?
anyways, i think these are the shows that are worth watching.
maybe for you girls. gossip girls too. heh.

watch tv!

Phone.

2009-02-02T22:27:00.002+08:00

i've been using my trusty Sony Ericsson W800i for years.
and now i think it's time to say goodbye to my friend.
i need a new phone! and siddiq and gang has been taunting me with their
ever so wonderful touchscreen phones.

so ya, i need phone that runs Windows Mobile and most of it are touchscreen.
the ones with keypads are huge. macam you got big junk infront.
not really nice.

sadly, htc diamond obsolete alr.
shops not carrying them anymore.
so i really have no idea what to get.
i need phone that can do all the basics and have radio.

what do you guys suggest?

loser.

2009-02-02T00:44:00.006+08:00

so she knows about her.
hmm.

i really feel like a loser talking to her.
i mean, i cant seem to hold a convo no matter what.
i want to sound normal but i feel as if i am pushing it.
i dont know what to say at all.
gahh! finding something to say to her is so bloody difficult.
maybe cos i know that she's hard to impress or smth.
i just dont want to say something that may sound stupid
or otherwise lame.

i dont wanna be that loser, but i feel that i am.

oh ya, before i end.

"You don't stop, you don't hide. You run!"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zNTj_WPDqYM

Probably one of the most anticipated movies this summer.

internet.

2009-02-01T14:23:00.003+08:00

damn you internet.
why aren't you working properly!
when i go into a page it will either load or refuses to load.
"PAGE NOT LOADED"
MY ASS UH!

the only times that the internet is blazing fast
would me in the wee hours in the night.
damn shit.
tv's a bore, friends are busy.

i need an outlet.
and i seriously wish i can talk to her.

go.

2009-02-01T02:05:00.000+08:00

take it and go.
take what's left of me.

loser.

boredom.

2009-01-30T22:17:00.004+08:00

slept at 4am, cos i really had nothing better to do.
last ep of Knight Rider was the bomb!
literally!

so digging KR right now.
even my wallpaper is KR.
damn. so i slept at 4 after chatting with nad.
was so expecting to get at least 4 hours or so of sleep.
but noooo, nad smsed me telling me her results at 6.30am!
gahh!

on a side note, congrats to you guys on your postings uh.
the very people that i smsed or chat with and those that i didnt
just go ahead and own the course.
seriously.

and to the girl who got into accountancy,
do well alright? though it isnt the school you wanted.
but more or less it's the same.
your dream job awaits, who knows maybe i'll ask you do my accounts next time.
heh.

filming of band tmr and have to get azrn on board on a project.
azrn, if you read this.
BUZZ ME! ASAP!

holidays.

2009-01-29T22:30:00.003+08:00

alright!
holidays are here.

when i procrastinate, nothing happens at all.
but when i start to do my work, the bloody computer has to catch a bloody virus.
think it's alright already. sheesh.
new skin to reflect the new mood.
past few weeks were bloody tiring. sorta.
stuff happened, good and bad.
few January babies turned a year older too.

once i have something to blog, i'll blog.
if not i guess this blog will be kinda dead.
gallery will be updated as and when i have a proper shoot la.

i just want to look forward to someone. heh.

dream.

2009-01-14T07:15:00.002+08:00

out at the theme park,
rekindling the spark.
sitting under the stars,
ignoring the cars.

snap back to reality,
now i'm feeling empty.
i woke up with this fear,
cos i know you aren't here.

~J

Leave Out All The Rest

2009-01-13T17:40:00.000+08:00

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, 'cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest, don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are

heart, hard.

2009-01-13T07:16:00.001+08:00

thought i could take it,
even if it's for a little bit.
but who am i lying,
feeling as if i'm on a swing.

one moment i'm flying,
the next, im dying.
my heart hurts,
it really hurts hard.

~J

relieved.

2009-01-12T21:56:00.002+08:00

she did very well,
she totally excelled.
i couldn't believe my eyes,
what i saw made me cry.

relieved that she scored,
wishing i could give a reward.
her future is set for her,
choosing whatever she prefers.

my wish for her is to go far,
so far that it reaches the star.
i want you to aim really high,
cos i know you can fly beyond the sky.

~J

//congrats, issy.
//you deserve nothing but the best in the world.
//do not falter.
//strive for the best.

panic.

2009-01-11T22:54:00.002+08:00

the clock is ticking,
the future's on a string.
feeling very nervous,
like water, i'm immersed.

heart thumping fast,
it's gonna last.
panicking real bad,
feels like i'm mad.

worrying for something,
to me, don't mean a thing.
worrying for the future,
not for me, but for her.

~J

Breakeven.

2009-01-10T13:47:00.000+08:00

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your OK
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your OK
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm trying make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

phone.

2009-01-06T21:24:00.002+08:00

the screen lights up,
without a doubt.
i'm hoping to see,
what i think would be.

alas, it's not,
but i haven't forgot.
how it used to be,
your name in the LCD.

~J

27.

2009-01-05T23:45:00.004+08:00

it started way back then,
when It all began.
with two compLete strangers,
like different music genres.

the number twentY seven,
with Two meanings within.
a special day,
and a special date.

under the void, i'll wait.
no matter How late.
we'll go for a date.
and be Back by eight.

~J

tomorrow.

2009-01-04T22:06:00.002+08:00

tomorrow marks the day,
two things i can say.
three weeks till school ends,
three months of what should have been.

seventeen days have passed,
it went by all so fast.
thought i could get over it,
but who am i to kid.

etched in my mind so deep,
still plays when i'm asleep.
new years eve was a surprise,
like fireworks in the sky.

~J

moments.

2009-01-03T23:46:00.002+08:00

each second that passes,
moments that i obsess with.
things that reminds me,
always makes me go, "wee!"

i've got a secret,
one which you know it.
the one i think of,
at a quarter to twelve.

moments like these,
always makes me miss,
times that were there,
me, not in solitaire.

~J

2009.

2009-01-01T18:07:00.000+08:00

a new year has dawned,
we have to look way beyond.
about things we can do,
for all that we set out to.

the past year has been great,
and i buried all that hate.
all i want to do,
is to move on with you.

~J

new year.

2008-12-31T13:03:00.002+08:00

a new year is dawning,
and i'm still yawning.
it's been a rollercoaster,
within the last year.

i can never forget what passed,
but i have to let it pass.
i'm happy to have lived through it,
and i am ready to admit.

the new year is here,
and we should all cheer.
hope that she's enjoying,
everything that is happening.

i wish her all the best,
she is always blessed.
with friends,
and family.

~J

away.

2008-12-26T23:02:00.002+08:00

spending my nights away,
with my friends by the bay.
now that i'm free,
i'd love to go on a spree.

getting presents for friends,
cos it isn't an offense.
B you're still on my mind,
i just hope you stay fine.

countdown to new years!

~J

christmas day.

2008-12-25T15:01:00.002+08:00

santa visited you last night,
because the star in you shined so bright.
he gave you what you liked,
and knew that it was all right.

the wishes he has for you this year,
are the ones he hold so dear.
he wants you to be happy,
for you to be free.

~J

P.S
merry christmas babe!
i'm glad you loved what i got you.
take care when you are in kl.
stay happy alright?

i forgave you a long time ago.

eve.

2008-12-24T15:57:00.002+08:00

it's one day before,
and there is so much more.
so much to be done,
just want her to have fun.

she was my greatest christmas present,
but she isn't in my presence.
i hope she likes what i got her,
the stuff that meant when we once were.

my christmas wish this season,
for you it only has one reason.
i want you to be happy,
happy to the fullest degree.

merry christmas, babe.

~J

question.s

2008-12-24T01:51:00.002+08:00

questions piled up,
like water in a drinking cup.
some had answers,
others had none.

wonder what's on someone's mind,
because i heard love is blind.
questions have to be answered,
but i might end up getting hurt.

I forgive you.

~J

glad.

2008-12-23T00:40:00.002+08:00

you went out with friends,
the ones that will last till the end.
they are great people,
the one for you, girl.

they will cherish you,
they're the ones who are true.
glad that you're happy,
and everyone agrees.

take care.

~J

christmas.

2008-12-22T15:38:00.002+08:00

2 days till christmas,
and someone is on his list.
a girl who has been good,
and always in the mood.

santa knows what she likes,
and it's definitely not bikes.
he knows she'll love it,
but she isn't gonna admit.

~J

the end.

2008-12-22T08:17:00.002+08:00

you said we were friends.
but now it's the end.
i hate seeing you that way,
but i really have to go away.

i wanted to keep my promises,
but you just don't want my misses.
i really don't know why.
that you don't even let me try.

i'm taking a back seat,
until the day we meet.
it's the end for now,
but i'm not gonna take a bow.

i'm gonna wait.

~J

wasted.

2008-12-21T22:59:00.002+08:00

it's gonna crash and burn,
and it hasn't even began.
i have to do this,
but there's something amiss.

i'm starting to regret this,
cos i'm afraid i might diss.
i don't want that to happen,
over and over again.

it feels so wasted,
i feel so wasted.
i cant think,
im not even in sync.

~J

just a hi.

2008-12-21T15:45:00.000+08:00

and i'll be contended.

blank.

2008-12-21T15:04:00.002+08:00

opening your window on msn,
composing a new sms,

im not able to write anything,
that wont sound annoying.

it hurts having your window on,
but i cant bring myself to close it.

it sucks.

status.

2008-12-21T13:26:00.001+08:00

who am i to you, really?
am i your friend?

happy?

2008-12-21T12:26:00.003+08:00

we went out,
you looked happy.
we sat down,
you looked sad.

gave you the ring,
it sparkled in your eyes,
cuddled you,
tears formed.

i was happy,
so were you.
but i sensed it,
you tried to hide it.

i wanted to live it,
you faked it for me.
it was the end,
i ignored it.

i was happy,
being with you.
nothing could take that,
away from me.

i'm gonna be here,
waiting.

~J

stars.

2008-12-20T21:59:00.003+08:00

you were a star in my eyes,
the brightest one in the night sky.
you outshone the rest,
and looked the best.

the night you faded,
i persuaded.
because the night was filled with stars,
and only you could complete it.

~J

left.

2008-12-20T13:46:00.001+08:00

cried as i said bye to you online.

frustration.

2008-12-20T13:21:00.002+08:00

the thought of it,
keeps me awake.
it frustrates me to hell,
there's no one i can tell.

i'm all alone,
living life on my own.
i blame myself,
and not forgiving myself.

i'd rather take blame,
then see you in pain.
we're never meant to be,
and now you're free.

frustration, i kept alot from you because i didn't want you to worry.

~J

forever and ever, babe.

2008-12-19T23:10:00.000+08:00

i will still love you in the morning.

never.

2008-12-19T18:26:00.002+08:00

it could have been,
what was never meant to be.
a long time together,
and all of it matters.

everything that happened,
things we only know when,
you're moving on,
but i haven't redrawn.

waiting...

~J

thanks for the memories.

2008-12-19T04:47:00.003+08:00

thanks for the sweet times we enjoyed.
thanks for the bad times we fought.
thanks for making a mark in me.
thanks for being there for me.

thanks for your cheery smile.
thanks for your hyperactiveness.
thanks for listening.
thanks for understanding.

thanks for making me feel better.
thanks for assuring me.
thanks for being there.
thanks for loving me.

issy, thanks for the memories.

~J, 051006 - 191208